| "Goodbye Cruel world" |
[Mar. 10th, 2010|04:12 am] |
This Journal is now going mostly Friends-Only. Sorry to all the very nice anonymous folks out there, but due to some RL craziness it's become important for me to know who's reading. I'll still post some things public but mostly it will be take action kinda stuff...
Your welcome to Comment and ask to be friended.
Scroll down to read the non-friends-only posts. |
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| Fuck mother fucker!!!! |
[Jun. 20th, 2009|11:23 am] |
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I am EXACTLY the person that the new cash for clunkers was MEANT to help!
I am desperate for a little help to buy a new car. And could do so with a little help from the gov.
I want a car that is only $15,000 or less
I want a care that gets an average fuel efficiency more than 10 gallons better than the car I currently drive.
The snag???
The care you currently drive must have had a NEW sticker fuel economy Average of less than 18mpg
My car got a rating of 19mpg
I am just so disappointed right now I don't know what to do. |
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| AWE!!!!! |
[Jun. 19th, 2009|08:00 pm] |
err that was not the link I meant.
this is:
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| whatever |
[Jun. 17th, 2009|09:22 pm] |
ok so I know know that I'm going to stop posting anything relationship-wise on here. I am sick of the lectures.
may just stop posting here all together... dunno yet. |
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| I've never really believed in the whole... your time to go thing... but whoa |
[Jun. 11th, 2009|07:23 pm] |
June 11, 2009
Woman who missed Flight 447 is killed in car crash
An Italian woman who arrived late for the Air France plane flight that crashed in the Atlantic last week has been killed in a car accident.
Johanna Ganthaler, a pensioner from Bolzano-Bozen province, had been on holiday in Brazil with her husband Kurt and missed Air France Flight 447 after turning up late at Rio de Janeiro airport on May 31.
All 228 people aboard lost their lives after the plane crashed into the Atlantic four hours into its flight to Paris.
The ANSA news agency reported that the couple had managed to pick up a flight from Rio the following day.
It said that Ms Ganthaler died when their car veered across a road in Kufstein, Austria, and swerved into an oncoming truck. Her husband was seriously injured. |
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| really upset about work |
[Jun. 7th, 2009|08:58 pm] |
Things have gone from ok to bad to worse very quickly at work. I am convenience my boss would have fired me on Friday if I'd not just been to see HR and I'm pretty darn sure that he is building a case against me still. I have to make an appointment to speak to Warren Page, head of facilities. I also have to have a meeting with Thomas Vance of HR about my ADA disability request. My supervisor has become increasingly belligerent. I am carrying around a voice recorder now because he has a tendency to say things to me when others are not around that are totally out of line. I was trying on Friday to only turn it on when he was around, but that plan as be thwarted because he snuck up on me and began berating and yelling at me so I took it out of my pocket and turned it on in front of him. So now he knows I have it. He will probably be more careful now, but I don't intend to give him any chances. It turns on when I get to work in the AM and will not turn off until I leave. That means I will have to come home and DL it every day, but oh well.
My stomach is in knots. Thank goodness I am on sleep medication. |
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| Double fandom Day |
[May. 25th, 2009|12:40 pm] |
Man so I need to grab my towel, eat a boiled egg and should probably wear soemthing lilac.
The egg is going to be hard boiled though because Unlike Vimesy I don't like runny yokes. Might cut some toast into soldiers tho. |
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| Eeeep! |
[May. 24th, 2009|10:27 pm] |
Ok so besides getting a tan and being allergic to the sun there is one more reason why it is incredibly unfair that I have turned out to be such a nature enthusiast... I am Terrified of ticks.There is just something about those little fuckers that scares the piss out of me. I swear I've had all the tests and I and totally negative for Lyme disease but I can't shake the paranoia that the reason my inflammatory polyarthritis is RF and ANA negative is that it's really Lyme disease and I caught it in June on my trip to ft mt. and it incubated for two months and I began to have serious joint pain in mid august.
Any way... I just found an American Dog tick in my hairline on the back of my neck. I really don't have any clue what made me scratch there but I felt an odd lump and thought it was a scab or something but when I pulled my hand around there was a fucking tick. *shivers*and I know it was latched on because it had a bit of my skin still attached. *shivers again* now I've got goose bumps and the hebie jebies on top of the willies. I've ban my cat from my bedroom and changed my sheets and tried to call my dad to check his dog 'cause I was over there today.
I think I'm going to go take a hot shower even though I know that isn't likely to bother a tick if I still have one attached somewhere else but maybe it will make me feel better.
creepy fuckers
I really wish I had someone around who could check me I'm not sure my hand mirror is gunna do. |
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| Something in Libra? |
[May. 18th, 2009|07:31 pm] |
I was almost overwhelmed today on the drive home. I simply can't seem to shake her. No matter what happens... No matter what I try to do...
Stay busy
redirect my thoughts
rituals
find new people
Nothing
I keep dreaming of her. Even when I managed to push her from my thoughts in the daytime. Even when I am wrapped in the arms of someone new.
She hit me like a ton of bricks on the way home from work today. I'd driven in because I couldn't find my bus pass this morning. The hour drive is long and tedious and I pass through so much of my old stomping ground. But to tell the truth she was on my mind long before I got anywhere near something that could have triggered it.
So I did the only thing I could at the time. I lite a cigarette. Turned up the radio. And then drove as fast as I possibly could without causing an accident.
I stopped at the grocery to pick up some veggies and fruit because I have been living on absolute crap for the past week or two. and I know that isn't going to help me shed any of the pounds I've put on since starting the prednisone and lithium.
Then I stopped by the home depot to see if they had any of the salvias that I wanted. They didn't but they did have some more zucs and since I murdered the last one, I bought another. You know if I let it it could really get me down... that every year I start out with all these wonderful ideas and plans for my garden, and every year I fall so incredibly short of it. I swear to myself that it's just because I'm alone, and can't manage as much as I want to do, but it's somewhat disheartening to look at my miserable lawn, and garden.
So I came home put the groceries up and pulled out the lawn mower, and mowed my weed patch back to something the marshal wouldn't cite me for. I need to rent or purchase a small rototiller to go over the patch we tilled a few weeks ago, as it was never tilled very well to begin with and now all the grass and weeds have sprouted again.
oh yeah and my ruematologiest called today and wants me to come in for more lab work, apparently something wasn't right with my last results. They said something about my Vitamin D. I dunno. I should have plenty of D as I work in the sun all the damn time. *shrug* |
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| Thanks |
[May. 14th, 2009|05:20 am] |
I wanted to say thank you to everyone that sent good thoughts for my last post.
The biopsy came back and it's NOT cancer!!!
She still has to go back in a week or two to find out of they still need to do surgery to remove it, but NOT cancer is such a relief. |
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[May. 5th, 2009|06:07 am] |
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Mom was in a serious accident on Friday night. Pt cruiser VS Semi. to check her for internal injurries they did a ct scan of her abdomin. they found a tumor in her stomach. the biopsy is today. Please send your good thoughts. |
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| LOL |
[Apr. 28th, 2009|07:03 pm] |
and the really funny thing is that I figured I wasn't even going to score as a nerd. |
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| LOL at the party invite. |
[Apr. 27th, 2009|03:22 pm] |
So My social calendar has suddenly begun to fill up dramatically.
I went on a really fun date last night with Jeff. Turns out we kinda know each other through friends and LARPs. He was a lot of fun to be around. We ended up hanging out until the wee hours... um I think I got home at 4:15 or so... So glad I didn't need to work today, and I felt aweful that he did have too, but he assured me it wouldn't be a problem. and if I'm honest with myself he could have chosen to leave in time to get to bed so I can't claim all the responsibility. He invited me out to the high sometime after work this week, which would be awesome. And he also invited me to the Ren fair next weekend. I'm a little blown away by all the invites and trying to at least maintain a moderate distance so as not to get too attached to quickly. I'll need to add some other folks into my calendar to avoid spending all my time with him right away.
I also just got invited to a Jew-b-que from Justin Curfman. Since I didn't know the slang I was a little worried we were talking about some sort of strange and frightening holocaust reenactment, but instead it turns out that it's just a term for a bar-b-que with cheap eats and a request to bring soemthing or cash. LOL It sounds like a lot of fun and I send Justin a reply letting him know I'd love to attend on the 16th. Anyone want to go to Justin's party with me? Hes really cool has an amazing Goth band that I LOVE.
My brother is at the Sheriffs Dept. right now picking up my tiller. Woot! He got frustrated with me because I called at 2pm and he was all half asleep when I asked if I could borrow his truck. Well he said he was gunna go back to sleep and so i figured I'd have a bit to fix myself lunch... well he called me at 3 grumpy that I hadn't already headed out to meet him and just said he'd go ahead an pick it up for me. So I called the Sheriff dept to let them know who was picking it up, and they said they would get the paperwork ready. So now all I have to do is figure out how to get the darn thing working again. Although after using the small Kamatsu tiler at work I SOOO want a little one that doesn't shake me half to death and try to run off without me every time I use it. I need the big one to break new ground but once it's broken I really only need a small one. And "my" big one is in fact my brothers anyway. I just had a friend help me pick it up one day but he had to leave before I could take it back. So it's sorta just stayed with me. I also need to figure out a way to put a lock on my shed.
I need to get some of the plants I bought last week in the ground the poor things are looking pretty haggard even though I healed them into the soil to keep them a bit more moist... It's just been to hot for them and they need to be in the ground. the only reason I' hesitating is that I burnt the crap out of my finger the other day and the blister busted and I'm trying to keep yuck out of it. but I do have a band aid on it so I dunno maybe in a bit I'll go out there and work. I've also been putting it off because I can't afford to re-injure myself, I only have a few days of vacation time left. |
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| Whoa |
[Apr. 26th, 2009|10:08 am] |
Had some really wild dreams about the life of Jesus. Mostly the message was that the apposes got everything he was trying to say totally wrong. In my dream he came back to earth a few years after his death and became enraged at what was being taught as his. there was a major element of the apostles making up things people needed to do to gain his favor and devoting their lives to him and what not that really pissed him off, and the excuses the apostles gave was that people needed this sort of thing more than being told they were good the way they are. There was also some minor side bar stuff about a child created with marry Magdalen and something rather odd about it not being through sex... exactly but through a handshake... though I seem to remember me saying something along the lines of "Like he jacked off and had goo on his hand, then later she fingered herself?" Though I can't really explain this bit, and it seems like its sort of blurred with the immaculate conception story dealing with Jesus' birth.
I'm pretty sure the immaculate conception stuff is related to a joke I made at the doctors office the other day when they asked if it was ok to X-Ray me and for the 3rd time asked if it was possible for me to be pregnant. I said "Well not unless it's immaculate, and I haven't seen God around lately." I don't think the nurse got the joke because she went off on how she heard soemthing on the radio that morning about some lady seeing Jesus on a grill cheese sandwich
There was also some really wild stuff about a child... but that's all pretty foggy. There was something about a dead tree that was being mourned, with lily flowers around it and stuff. |
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| Well shit! |
[Apr. 23rd, 2009|10:32 pm] |
I was sent home from work today on a workers comp. I can't go back until at least Tuesday. I apparently have a back strain.
I'm not sure I am going to be able to participate in the Babies walk tomorrow. This totally bites. I'm trying to figure out a way... maybe a wheelchair? but I'm afraid rolling myself is going to put just as much work on my back though maybe not as much on my low back. Can any of ya'll think of anything I can do?
I just hope the Doc says I can go back to work on Tuesday. WC doesn't pay unless you have to be out 14 or more days so I have to use vacation and sick time until then. |
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| Garden party next weekend. |
[Apr. 11th, 2009|09:07 pm] |
Ok so the gardening party will be next weekend... as long as it doesn't rain, but right now it's looking at least moderately clear. I'd prefer to have it on Saturday but Sunday is still totally a possibility. I've got three yeses so far.
Yay! |
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| club tonight and garden party |
[Apr. 10th, 2009|12:11 pm] |
Hey would any of you reading my journal be interested in attending a gardening party at my place either this weekend or next?.
We could till, plant, weed. Discuss designs and plant material. Laugh chat and whatever else we like. I would provide lunch.
Also I have plans to go to an 80s night at my sisters room tonight if anyone wants to join us. |
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| Note To Self |
[Apr. 7th, 2009|06:47 pm] |
When you are microwaving Spaghetti Squash...
It is imperative that you pierce the rind...
If you do not..
It will explode with enough pressure to blow open the microwave door and cover your kitchen in strands of mushy squash and seeds.
Aside from that...
Today still hadn't been a very good day.
The lady at the sprint store PROMISED me my phone would be in today... It wasn't.
My endodontic appointment was at 1:30 not 3:30.
The work I need done exceeds my dental benefits by more than 1,000. Even though I had the original root canal done there and that root canal is infected.
I have another tooth on the other side of my mouth that has been causing me substantial pain since I got a cavity filled in it last month.
Just filled out a job ap for a ranger, but signed up for the testing in Atlanta which is on a Monday at 1pm and I know work will give me hell if I try to take that time off. Now I am trying to figure out how to take it in Rome.
But on the bright side I have been getting tons of great job tip from ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) catherineschild
Anyone want to critic my resume and cover letter? |
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